Gleenifs Idmex (Mixed Feelings)
Haze of emotions! This haze of emotions is burning a hole through my heart...
So, after that little bit of poetry, I may indulge you.
First, I hate my dad. And no, this is not one of those times where you get so mad at someone that you feel like you want to tear their heart out. No, this isn't one of them. This is a hate that I've had for a long time, if not a hate then surely a strong dislike. I can understand him--after all, he's in my genes--and he's a very complicated, very smart person. He also happens to be an extremely religious person who so far in my near-fourteen years has not really inspired me to have faith in God. (It is partly because of this that I am agnostic.) Whenever I make the slightest slur on Christianity, he's on my back. He also completely loses it whenever I do something mild. I know I'm not just teenish and overreacting because I love my mom--she's totally different. She can be funny, helpful and kind at the same time. But him? Totally different, totally pushy, and even by adult standards totally unreasonable.
Hello, second wierd emotion: God, can love go fuck itself or what? Sorry to all other Scorpios out there who don't share my problem, but the main problem with me, a Scorpio, is that I get obsessed over my crush/es (it's the "es" part that really pisses me off) and run through guys like Halloween candy. (Excluding those people who still have their 'ween candy like, next April.) I've been sticking with like two or three, heehee, since the last three or four months, but I know that pretty soon I'm going to get over it and like some other idiot. The problem is that now I'm getting older I'm falling for better people: ones who like what I'm interested in, ones who are funny or smart and pay attention to me even though they (hopefully) don't know I have a crush on them. So how do I tell if the guy I like is the right guy? How do I know??
I'll gloss over my school emotions because for all of you in school it may be like reading your mind in a mirror. :P
TFATF!!
-Ahaneen :)
gepost door Ahaneen @ 7:35 p.m.
9 reacties:
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hmmm.. i don't think it's good to hate your dad or even strongly dislike. and as for love? i don't believe love is something we'd understand. i think you could recognize it when it's there but otherwise, i have no idea. lol, i'm a scorpio and i have tons of crushes but i know perfectly that it's not 'love'. anyways, i'll be checking around your site more cuz you write about interesting subjects.
-'achrtelot,-
oh yeah, btw, i don't write all that well and not one person would give me any real criticism.. well, except you and for that, thanks. i have no idea what i'm gonna do about this story.. i have a feeling it's going downhill... very fast too.
you hit the nail on the head, whoever you are, achrtelot. I don't think it's good to hate anyone in your family, but I don't know what to make of this. I agree with your position on love--but the fact that it's undefinable makes it both frustrating and magical, in a way. :D
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